268. As I was saying all these mean things, I was also
thinking about why I seemed to be angry as well. I think it was because I did
not like the fact that she had, just before my tirade, been severely
criticizing her husband.
269. I found her criticism of her doctor husband very
threatening. All along, even since all of that business about her hat box and
the photographs of her as a young woman, my feelings about Agnes had been
changing.
270. I had to admit to myself that I was more than simply
attracted to Agnes; perhaps I was actually in love with her.
271. But I did not want to be in love with my sculpture
teacher, what would be the point in that?