252. That is a good question and goes right to the heart of the matter.
253. I did not want to appear to be stupid; that is all there is to it.
254. It was a convoluted situation. For almost three years I had, over and over again, found myself treating with respect and admiration, things I thought were stupid and pointless, so as not to appear ignorant.
255. That is my explanation of my duplicitous behavior, deceptive and false to nobody but myself.