160. At first it was with a feeling of behaving as it I was not myself, even more that that, as if I was acting the part of someone the opposite of myself, but later I came to adopt this new personality, and feel comfortable with it.
161. A month went by, and I received my reply from the museum about my painting submission. My painting had been accepted into the show.
162. I should have been happy with this result, but I was not. I had fully expected my painting to be rejected, and I will tell you the reason straight out, although it makes me ashamed to say it.
163. I felt that it was a fraud, and that I was a fraud to even have submitted it to the show.